No Room For Love Episode 41
Kate didn’t know what to do and kept wondering if that was what Matt’s was referring to. She put on the bedside light and then shook Nectar so hard. “Kate stop thinking about his shirtless body”, Kate rebuked her mind.
‘How could I be thinking of that now, when I should call for help.’
He was reluctant or probably couldn’t feel Kate’s hands all over him.
It took ten minutes for the seizure to stop while Kate was so scared in her thoughts.
Finally, she was jolted out of her worried mind when he made a hiss sound.
Kate sighed though Nectar didn’t open his eyes but checking his pulse, she was glad he could still breathe.
The next day, she wasn’t able to ask him about what happened. Nectar just kept to himself, as if he had no memories of what happened and the attack continued for the next three days.
Kate was beginning to get fed up with the noise, and couldn’t figure out how to help Nectar.
She picked up her phone and contemplated on calling her friend.
‘Matts, please can you help, it’s your brother. I think I’m tired of his mumbling. Can you come over?’ Kate found herself needing Matt’s help over the phone.
******
‘I need to get her back. She has to know that i learnt to fall in love with her. Though i was a flirt and a cheat around her, i also fell in love with her without knowing it.’
Mandela sat on his bed talking to himself and making his next plan.
‘It was all a game at first, but my heart beats for her anytime she was with me.’
Mandela admitted to himself he was a player and even though he had a lot of girls flocking on him back then Kate was still kind to him.
‘Despite the horrible way she was treated, her immense love changed me and i wanted to be a better person for her.’ Mandela muttered regrettably. ‘And just when I was about to tell her the truth and declare my true feelings, hoping she forgives me, Matt’s the devil in disguise whisked me away to jail.’
He checked the scar on his left arm which he got from fighting in jail. Mandela frowned for a minute.
‘Now I’m back. I have to claim my love. She has to listen to me. I have never for once forgotten her face while behind bars.’
He glanced at the tiny frame in his hands with an image in it.
‘This was what kept me going for all the treatments, I suffered for a crime I didn’t commit.’ Mandela kept pondering over his past life with Kate.
He held onto the frame firmly.
*****
‘Sis what are you doing here this early.’ Nectar was surprised to see Matts over at his end. ‘Did mum send you.’
‘No sai…. Nect..ar, Kate tried to get his name right. I called for her.’ Kate carefully replied.
‘Okay is there a problem.’ Nectar asked inquisitively.
‘Nectar, women’s stuffs.’ Matt’s glared at him.
‘Can you stay out of it please?’ Katie finally said getting worked out.
‘I’m going out then, you ladies have a nice day.’ Nectar finally walked out and they both heaved a sigh of relief.
‘Katie how serious was it? Does he have any memory of the previous nights.’
‘I’m not so sure.’
‘You didn’t ask him.’ Matt’s queried as if she was in court.
‘We don’t talk,’ Kate replied Matts question.
Matts expression changed as she tried to mouth something but kept her mouth shut, which Kate was grateful for.
‘Look I’m not about to discuss my marriage with you, I called you here to attend to your sick brother. You are welcome to stay as long as you can.’
Kate said trying to sound plain and angry.
‘Kate, why are you so bitter? What happened to you.’ Matts found herself asking Kate questions again.
‘You broke me.’ Kate muttered.
‘I can’t begin to say I know how to fix what was broken and I’m not asking you to start loving again, but the way I see it, you both are perfect for each other; you need to heal each other in your own small way.’
‘Don’t ask me to do that.’ Kate expressed her displeasure.
‘Try to accommodate him then. He is sick but you can make it work.’
‘Why do you think i can do that?’
‘I know you so well Kate and I’m glad you married him.’
Matts tried advising her friend while trying to escape her full gaze.
‘You are glad I married the sickness in your family right.’ Kate said sarcastically.
‘Come off it, Katie.
Yes, we are glad he finally wants to settle down again but i was the happiest when I found out it was you.’
Kate re adjusted herself in the couch after Matt’s comment which shows she was restless.
Matt’s waited for her to say something but it seemed Kate’s mind was already made up.
‘We had our own issues, which didn’t stop me from approving of you Katie.
Cut me some slack here, you both need each other.
He is a good man Katie; just give him the benefit of the doubt.’ Matts kept playing the good sister trick with her.
‘Why should I do that?’ Kate retorted back to Matts, whose gaze was fully on her.
‘Because you are carrying his children, If anything you help the father of your children recover and he will be there for the kids.
Your children will equally need him someday. Matts said with her eyes reassuring Kate to trust her.
‘Why do you even care?’
‘I believe you wanted the same experience yourself from your dad, but you never had that. Don’t deny your children that privilege to have a sane father.’
‘Don’t bring my father into this Matts.’
‘But Katie you know I’m right.’
She glared at Matt’s for a while.
“Yes, Matts is right,” she told herself inwardly.
‘If you were carrying another man’s children, I would gladly help with the divorce.’
‘Since nectar told me you didn’t want to marry him, i only thought of him getting a woman who will father his children.
Then you agreed and I thought of divorce incase things didn’t work out but he wouldn’t agree to it now.’
‘Why?’
‘Because he claimed he could endure your attitudes.’ Matt’s narrated.
She kept talking too much already and Kate tried signaling her with her eyes to keep quiet.
‘Find a way to get me out Matt’s.’ She said in a sad tone.
‘Now it’s different Katie, children are involved.’ Matt’s spoke her final words.
‘So, the best way you can help is, I stuck myself in this marriage.’ Kate asked her.
‘I don……’ Matt’s was saying when she cut her off.
‘Besides my heart was shattered in pieces by my best friend. Nothing compared to what he is suffering from besides If you have been dealing with this for 7years and he hasn’t recovered what makes you think, he will now.’ Kate was now in control of asking Matts her own questions.
‘Katie, I believe he just needs someone to be there for him, someone to hold, someone probably to share his fears with and at the look of things you equally need that someone too.’
Matts said sensibly. And Kate agreed she was right.
“However, am i ready to move on, when somehow my heart still yearns for he who broke it in the first place.”
‘See! it’s time to get over Mandy, I don’t want to keep bringing his name up, but its high time you mention his name and not feel like you want to droll all over him again as you are trying to do right now.’
‘You think it’s that easy?’ Kate queried.
‘You have to kill whatever force of attraction it is Katie.’
‘Matts you have no idea how i feel about him.’ She muttered angrily!
‘I did you a favor because by now, you would have married or be carrying that bastard’s children and you would have really regretted it.’ Matts said vehemently and now pissing Kate off.
‘Emmm….’ Words failed Kate when she opened her mouth to talk.
‘Is that what you wish for yourself? Visiting him in county?’ She asked.
‘What do you mean by county?’
‘Mandy is in Jail?’
‘Jail?’
‘I didn’t tell you every part of that woman’s story.’ Matt’s continued.
‘I’m listening Matt’s.’
‘The point is he got jail time after that innocent girl died when Mandy took her for an abortion of his child.’
‘Poor girl.’ Kate lamented.
‘I helped in the process because i couldn’t stand watching him go scot free, and leaving the mother of that girl childless was not an option. She works for me in my office canteen. That’s the best I could do.’
Kate watched Matt’s narrate the missing part of why she betrayed her and she couldn’t help but was amazed in tears how far Matt’s would go for her.
She is one damn good lawyer who owns her own practice and does know what she wants.
As if she regretted being angry with her for that long years, Kate wiped her face lightly without Matt’s watching.
Just then, Nectar walked in.
‘Are you women gossiping about me.’ She just eyed him to the right; he was irritating her now with that smile on his face.
‘You know that how,’ Matts asked!
‘My wife is in a good mood for once.’ Nectar pointed out with a grin on his face. Kate pretended she didn’t hear that and rolled her eyes at him.
“So, this gentleman didn’t see me rolling my eyes earlier”. Kate thought!
He was drawing his hands to touch her when Kate frowned.
“He can still see the good in me after all these attitudes, what kind of a man is he.” She murmured slowly and quietly. “Has the death of his wife screwed up his brain, because a man should flare up sometimes and give corrections when necessary”.
‘Did you say something?’ Nectar asked Kate curiously.
She just kept staring at him.
‘Nectar obviously you haven’t been doing your work well, so I’m here to make sure you do that.’ Matts teased his brother.
‘Oh really? Kate tell her I’m the best husband.’
Kate looked at Matts and she was beckoning on her to respond. Fighting the urge to just give in or hold on, Kate took a deep breath and all that came from her mouth was, ‘I’m hungry. Who cares for lunch.’
‘Tell me how I can help Katie.’ Matt’s asked knowing to get her friend to give up her ego would take time.
Matt’s followed her up to the kitchen.
To be continued
EPISODE 42
‘Nectar you don’t like the food?’ Matts asked. ‘Your wife cooked it for you, appreciate her and stop staring like someone who just saw a ghost.’ His sister cautioned further.
Nectar stared while Kate just focused on her plate, but she could feel his gaze on her.
‘Why do you keep staring, as if I’m stopping you from eating?’ Kate finally asked Nectar.
‘Nothing Kate,’ he replied without a smile. They ate in silence for a while.
Kate felt Nectar thought she didn’t know how to cook.
She shook her head several times and kept stealing glances while beaming inside, when all she wanted was a simple compliment for the food, as it was her first-time cooking for him.
She was however disappointed, he didn’t get to finish all the meal.
“Why was she suddenly softening up to him,” Kate thought aloud but couldn’t mouth it out.
**
‘OMG Matt’s you haven’t stopped sleeping around with your so-called hairy men huh.’
Kate tried to remember their past. They both laughed hilariously.
‘I can’t do without the handsome hairy men.’ Matt’s replied and a genuine smile appeared across her whole face for a while.
‘What is funny?’ Kate asked! She was concerned about Matt’s smiles.
‘Katie you haven’t noticed you still remember details about me that we both just laughed at.’
Then Kate realized they have been chatting since after dinner, just like old times.
‘Yeah, I think it’s time I forgive you provided you wouldn’t do a silly thing like that next time.’
Kate muttered knowing very well Matt’s would still try to defend her actions but she was already tired of their arguments.
‘Katie, just listen to me sometimes, I could be lying but what harm would it cause if you just try to find out things for yourself.’
‘It’s not as if I don’t listen to you Matts. I felt you exaggerate too much.’
‘Now that is over right?’ Matts asked. She didn’t want to keep dragging issues with her.
‘Yes,’ Kate replied reading Matt’s mind. She was prepared for her next question.
‘And you would give my brother a chance?’
‘No, I can’t promise that Matt’s.’ She rightly said quickly and smiled.
‘Take your time,’ Matts was about to continue her long speech, just then Kate’s phone rang.
‘Drake!’ She muttered happily.
‘Is my baby sleeping already?’ He said with some weird tone, then Anthon chipped in. ‘Kate Drake just got dumped.’
‘Got dumped?’
‘Ahuh! Miriam left her.’ Anthon teased.
‘What? Poor boy.’ She shouted? ‘I mean How and Why?’ Kate couldn’t find the right questions to ask because she met the girl Miriam and she didn’t look like someone who would dump Drake soon.
‘Because of you Kate,’ She finally heard James saying. That was when she knew it was a conference call.
‘What did I do?’ She was surprised they were claiming she had a hand in that.
‘Don’t be dumb woman; Drake has been in love with you like forever and I’m surprised you haven’t noticed.’ Anthon said.
‘No way,’ Kate found it amusing, ‘Drake are you there, is that true! You love me. Are you being real.’ Kate kept asking her questions quickly.
‘It seemed he went off,’ James said. Have a good night and try to call him,’ both men said teasingly.
‘Katie what is it, who is in love with you?’ Matt’s must have overheard their conversation. That moment was when she realized she was in deep thoughts.
Matt’s examined her for some seconds and knew something was off.
‘Katie are you okay!’ Matts asked this time with a loud tone.
‘Yes, Matt’s, it’s one of my friends. You saw him at the wedding.’ She paused and contemplated if she should trust Matt’s again.
Matt’s recognized the hesitation in her voice. ‘It’s fine, if you don’t want to share that with me.’
‘It’s Drake! I learnt he is in love with me. Mom said this a while back but I felt she was just exaggerating.’
‘Do you love him?’ Matts asked taking her off guard.
‘Yes,’ Kate said without even knowing she just admitted to having feelings for Drake which wasn’t what she meant to say.
‘Okay, that’s new.’ Matt’s admitted and kept saw the look on her face.
‘No, I mean yeah we are friends, so definitely i love him as a friend.’ She tried to clarify.
‘Well it seems he does more than that.’ Matt’s frowned. ‘And if what you said about him leaving his girlfriend because of you then I think you should find time and talk to him. You know you are married right?’ She asked at the end.
Matts couldn’t wait to remind Kate of her worst nightmare.
‘Yeah, I have no plans of getting out for the sake of my children,’ She replied trying not to get offended.
‘Can I borrow my wife;’ Nectars voice startled them both!
‘Sure, why not bro! I think I want to sleep now.’
Matt’s gave her friend a peck.
‘Hey sis be careful, that’s my wife there.’ Nectar said and his smile disappeared following Kate’s will you shut up gaze she dropped on him.
‘I know, it’s just a harmless peck,’ Matt’s teased and they both laughed but Kate was deep in thoughts while asking herself what to do.
‘Kate can we talk.’
‘What about! You always have a way of ruining moments. Be on your own.’ She lashed out unnecessarily on him.
As if Kate saw tears in Nectars eyes, she just had to say something obviously on pretense. At that moment she admitted to herself Matts was right to say Nectar is the father of her children so she should try and make things easier for him.
‘Okay fine, I’m sorry I snap at you all the time but truth be told, you are too nice to me which I obviously don’t deserve.’
‘But yo…..’
Kate cut him off. ‘Well maybe I deserve it but I can’t tell what your intentions are.’ She finally managed to say and before he could reply she interrupted again. ‘What do you want to discuss?’
He took a step back and forward, then back.
‘I wanted to find out if we can start shopping for the children.’ he said happily.
‘It’s too early, father of the season.’ She smiled. ‘Unless you don’t think so.’ Kate chipped in quickly.
‘If you say so,’ he muttered and was about to leave when Kate said to set the date while she tries to be available since she has to work throughout next week.
He just rushed towards her at first, she thought he was picking something up and then she felt his mouth on hers.
Kate just heard herself saying stop it so loud and pushed him on the floor.
‘What was that all about?’ Kate asked wondering why she was angry over a harmless kiss.
‘I’m sorry Kate. I was just excited.’ Nectar said annoying her more.
‘Look you had better start behaving like a grown up, as I have decided to get stuck with you in this marriage.’
She walked pass him towards their room and saw Matts rushing to pick him up.
‘Nectar are you okay. Just give her some time, she will come around. Pregnancy hormones are also part of her stress.’ Kate heard Matts say calmly.
She walked away regrettably.
Kate woke up to the side of her bed empty. She careless but was worried within her since she pushed him earlier.
That was wrong Kate, she kept hearing a voice struggling in her mind.
‘I guess I never slept at all.’ She muttered and went downstairs. Kate met him lying on the couch with his head on Matt’s.
Then she heard the murmurings again. Kate walked closer and saw Matt’s pointing to a towel in water. Kate just handed it over to her and fear gripped her. She thought the pushing triggered something.
Because the last time it happened they had some intense argument. She scolded herself.
‘Matt’s did this happen because of the push.’
‘I’m not sure because nobody has ever been able to tell what triggers it.’ Matts said avoiding Kate’s gaze.
‘What are you talking about?’
‘Katie, he has no idea he experiences this? He has no memories!’
‘You never told him. Why?’ She questioned Matts, stealing glances towards Nectar who was still not responding to Matts touch.
‘Katie, we tried but since he has no memories of that, we just let it slide hoping it would stop someday.’
‘When is that someday? Matt’s, he needs to know?’
‘I agree, same way he needs to know about his children.’ Matts was being sarcastic.
‘This isn’t the right time to discuss his children. He can’t know about his children when he is having some weird attack you all didn’t deem it fit to tell me about before I married him.’
‘You weren’t exactly talking to me Katie.’
‘What if it’s hereditary, I can’t have two children with a mental ishh.’
‘Then help me Katie, let’s try to make this marriage work.’
Kate agreed Nectar needed help; She looked at the dejected body lying before her. Nectar looked so innocent to her and she wondered what could have happened to his first marriage. She kept asking herself until they retired to bed when the worse was over.
***
Kate met Nectar downstairs the next day. Though she wanted to ignore him, she was also curious.
‘Gentle man good morning, you slept on the couch. May I know why?’
As if he was confused, he kept looking around.
“I just needed to try another approach, I may not be ready to succumb to whatever he feels for me but I can as well try.” She advised herself loudly, just then Nectar looked at her direction. Kate wondered if he had heard what she said.
Nectar kept looking around instead of answering her questions. Kate felt ignored.
‘Looking for Matts?’ Kate asked and then Nectar nodded! ‘She has a job remember.
‘Oh, yes,’ he replied so lively.’ Breakfast is on the table,’ He said and Kate didn’t hesitate to give out a smile to his surprise.
She had no idea that was why he was fumbling earlier.
‘I need some sleep,’ She whispered just to avoid another talk with him since Kate felt she was given too much attention that morning.
‘Call me if you need anything.’ Kate was about to take a step forward when he grabbed her hand. He realized what he did and quickly dropped her hands.
‘Sorry.’ He muttered cheerfully.
Only God knew the surge that went through Kate’s body.
Kate quickly had to brush it aside, blaming it on the hormones.
‘I want to apologize for yesterday; I shouldn’t have done that Kate. Knowing well you detest men who are in love with you.’
‘Have you been checking up on me?’ She asked him glaring.
‘No Kate, I just happen to know you quite well for these few months.’ He said making his face as if trying to remember something.
Kate was dumfounded, how he could read her thoughts vividly when she barely knows what’s on her mind.
He was walking away when she called after him. ‘Gentle man, i’m sorry about yesterday as well,’ she stared for a while. ‘i meant the fall and everything.’
‘Thanks, that is fine, I understand.’ He said all bubbly and walked away.
“How is this man so calm after that great fall,” Kate was thinking when her mom’s thoughts came to mind.
She picked up her phone to dial her number.
***
‘Mom are you okay, please I want to come over.’ Kate said quickly over the phone.
‘What is it baby?’
‘Mom I don’t know how to handle this.’
‘Exactly what are you not able to handle?’
‘This marriage and the whole Nectar attitudes.’
‘I don’t understand you Kate.’ Catherine said increasing the volume on her phone to hear clearly.
‘Mom he is so good to me but I can’t seem to see pass that, I’m always angry at even the nicest things he does for me.’
‘You are still hurting love.’ Catherine whispered.
‘But I’m not like that with my guys, I don’t treat them rudely like i do with Nectar. My heart is so hardened anytime I see him.’
‘You have to try as a wife not just a roommate.’ Her mom muttered slowly.
‘I don’t know how to handle him when he keeps doing everything right but I’m too broken to see that and acknowledge his presence. I can’t be fixed mom.’ Kate keeps narrating for a whole ten minutes.
She was in her mom’s arms crying, which Catherine constantly smooched her back slowly.
‘Baby it’s okay; you will figure it out soon. Take it easy, one-step at a time.’
‘How do i go about all this mom.’ She cried.
‘The best thing is to talk to him, sit him down. Tell him to give you some time. Probably you can start with the fact that he is the father of your twins that might make things better.’
‘Mom, I’m scared of letting someone in again.’
‘I know my dear.’
Her Mom said but Kate’s mind was roaming all over her decisions lately.
To be continued
