S.I.M.S Episode 14
(STEPPING INTO MAGGIE’S SHOE)
©️Opeyemi Ojerinde Akintunde
I was on the floor throwing tantrums, I was using my legs to scatter things, my hands to push things …Why?
I was 8 years old at that time and mum had taken me to the shopping mall to get some groceries. I had seen a beautiful Barbie doll and wanted it at all cost. Those were the days when there were no credit cards, so Mum didn’t have extra cash to pay for the doll.
I wasn’t going to take no for an answer, I fell to the ground and started throwing tantrums at the shopping mall. Mum tried calming me down, explaining to me that she was out of cash and would buy it next time, but it was like pouring kerosene into Fire. I cried the more…
Mum, eventually had to drop some groceries in other to buy the doll. As we got out to the parking lot, an elderly woman walked up to my mother…
“ Ma’am Good Afternoon, I am sorry for interfering, but you need to work on your child. I am sorry, my manners, My name is Mrs Tilewa Brown, I have been a child psychologist for over 30 years. Ma’am you are building a fake life for your child, the life of getting whatever she wants. Now it’s ok, because you are very much around to give her what she wants, but someday as she grows up and leaves home, she might have serious issues letting go of things, she might have other issues which may escalate to a lot of psychological problems , For example, she may later suffer from Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) , which is an anxiety disorder in which people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations (obsessions) that make them feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions), she might also suffer from….”
“ Madam, please, with all due respect there is nothing wrong with my child, she is just being naughty and for what she has done I will spank her when we get home.. Thanks…”
My mother had walked away,but she didn’t fulfil her word of spanking me. I was the only child and that made me get away with everything I did…
As I sat on the floor in Julius’ empty room, that episode of the shopping mall was what flashed through my mind as the words of that woman finally made sense to me…
Mum had always gotten me everything I ever needed, which explains why she went to that extent of wanting to get me Apostle, but a time had come that I was not with her, so she couldn’t get me Julius back…
“What Next?” Was the bell ringing in my head, as I laid down on the concrete floor of Julius’ house. I couldn’t go back to my parents.
“My mother will mock me badly” I thought silently….
“ Julius I will kill you the day I ever set my eyes on you…You were just smarter than I was this time around”… I said as I started throwing tantrums like a child once again. This was one of my habits since I was a little child, I always threw tantrums when denied anything, but here was I with no Mum to give me what I wanted…
“ What do I really want?” I asked myself and I couldn’t find the answer…
For the first time since I was a little child, I decided to be calm to know what I really wanted…
“ Did I really love Apostle?”
“ No….” the answer screamed very loudly in my heart…
“ So why did I go all out to get him?”
“ Greed!… I just always have my eye on anything that isn’t mine” I said truthfully to myself
“ I am sorry, God, I am really sorry…, please forgive me, for the Spirit of Greed that has ruled my life since I was a little kid.. You know whenever I don’t get what I want , my body begins to vibrate, I throw tantrums, but I didn’t know it will lead me here… God, you know I am a good girl, I am sorry for wishing to be in Pastor Maggie’s shoe, I didn’t know the devil was around eavesdropping on my wish.. I am sorry Lord… I will confess my bad deeds and I am ready to face the consequences of my actions”
“ You are forgiven” I heard a voice behind me
As I turned around, I didn’t see anyone, I became scared. I jumped up from the floor, looked out through the window, I saw no one… I became suddenly cold, but then I heard again…
“ But you have to enter her shoes, You wished for it, and your wish has been approved.” The voice was so loud and real. I didn’t know whether it was God or the devil who spoke or the insane voices in my head. I ran out of the house and started running…
I walked, and I kept walking for close to 3 hours before I found myself in front of Apostle’s church…
“ How did I get here?” I asked myself. I was standing at the entrance of the church looking lost When I heard a loud horn behind me. I turned to check who it was, it was Apostle.
The security men rushed to open the gate, I moved away from his front to make way for him to drive into the church compound. The moment he parked his vehicle, he got down in a rush, asking the security to tell me to come in…I saw a beautiful lady alighting from his car.
As I walked towards him, I knew what I wanted to do. I was going to spill the beans and tell him everything….
“ Happy, What is wrong?” Apostle asked as he looked at how dirty I was looking
“ Can I see you privately?” I said referring to the presence of the lady as a problem…
“ You can tell me whatever, the problem is, this is Chaba, she is my fiancée, she is a South African”
“ What?…Was this Apostle ok? It was barely months he was saying God told him I was his wife, Did God quickly change his mind?…A fiancée from South Africa?”
I said Hi to her and said calmly
“ You are welcome ma, but I insist sir, that I need to speak to you privately”
Apostle didn’t agree to have his fiancée leave, so I decided to spill the beans. He told us to go with him to the office…There was something about his new Fiancée that wasn’t right, but I couldn’t place my finger on it…
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“ Julius has left me, and I am not surprised because I am medically insane, also I want to let you know, I have a hand in Pastor Maggie’s death, not directly but through my actions, also I was the one who poured Acid on Christabel’s face… That’s all”
Apostle and His fiancée were so shocked that they looked speechlessly at me…
S.I.M.S Episode 15
(STEPPING INTO MAGGIE’S SHOE)
©️Opeyemi Ojerinde Akintunde
Apostle bent his head on the table, obviously shocked at what I had just said… I saw him raising his head and picking up his Phone. I knew what was next…He was about to call the Police on me, I didn’t care, my life was of no point…
“ Hello, ma’am, Good Afternoon ma, Happy is here with me and she is acting quite strangely and saying things she has not done. I will keep her here so she doesn’t say the wrong thing to the wrong people…Ok ma…very well ma…”
“ Apostle, I am not insane, I did all these things”
“ Chaba please can you give me some minutes” he said to his fiancée
“So finally, he wanted us alone” I thought silently
After the strange Chaba left us, Apostle walked up to me and held me by the shoulders and looked me straight in the eye…
“ Are you saying you did all these things?” He asked
“ Yes!”
“ Why?, You love me?”
“ No, I don’t love you, I did it out of Greed!”
“ Then why did you marry Julius instead?”
“ Like I said, I don’t love you, I was just fascinated by the idea of being your wife, Julius was where my heart was, I never knew the feeling wasn’t mutual” I said
“ And you are not afraid, that by confessing I will hate you and have you arrested?”
“ If you hate me, I can deal, but if God is not happy with me, I can’t deal with that”
“ I need you in my life…” he said as he hugged me so tightly like someone who was hugging his mother…Apostle Ray I held in high esteem suddenly felt like a Baby…, but back to what he had just said about needing me in his life…
“ What?”
“ I need you in my life ” he said again, and this time around I pushed him away from me
“ I am married and you have a fiancée Sir, besides what exactly are you looking for, Your wife died barely 6 months and you are out to get a new wife by all means”
“ That’s why I need you…”
I was scared at the way the Apostle was acting, at that point I didn’t know who was actually psychotic, me or the Apostle?
Chaba barged in on us, thank God I had pushed him away from me…
“ Ray, I am really famished, are you not through with your Counselling?” Chaba said
“Really?, are you planning on being the Apostle’s wife, because if you do ma, you will need to learn some patience when your husband is having a Counselling session” I said as I stepped out …
“ Happy, Happy,…” Apostle said calling my name, but I wasn’t in the mood to answer him. I had made my confession, and I was free of any guilt.
God had forgiven me, and I needed to start a new life….
My phone rang and obviously it was my mother…
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“ I said you are going home with me” Mum had come over to my place with the hope of taking me back home…
“ I am in my matrimonial home”
“ Matrimonial home indeed” My mother gave a ridiculous laughter… “So you think you actually got married, No sweetheart, You didn’t…, you are as single as you were few months back…” My mother was already packing few of my stuffs and I knew I couldn’t win this battle…
My phone beeped, indicating I had a text message…
“ Happy, now that you have no man in your life, please let me be that man.. You don’t know how much this means to me, that God is giving me another chance with you.. And if you don’t plan on marrying me, I can make do with a secret affair…”
“ Secret Affair?” My eyes popped and I said loudly …
“ What?” My mother responded…
“ Nothing” I hid my phone as I began to think about the Text silently…
“Apostle Ray was definitely psychotic…” I concluded in my heart…
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To be continued
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