S.I.M.S Episode 12 – 13 by Opeyemi O. Akintunde

S.I.M.S Episode 12

(STEPPING INTO MAGGIE’S SHOE)
©️ Opeyemi Ojerinde Akintunde

Hypomania was about to have a full expression in me. I knew I was just walking. Hypomania made me walk long distance without being tired. I was so heartbroken by Julius’ betrayal, that I wanted to run far away from him or kill him.

My phone was ringing, but I wasn’t ready to pick up any call. A lot of thoughts were flashing through my brain… I thought of killing Julius, and it seem like a good idea because I won’t be jailed for it. I was a medically Insane person and if I killed anyone, I won’t be punished for it.
I thought of how to go about it, I thought of strangulating him but I knew I didn’t have the power or strength to do it…

I thought of Poisoning him, all I needed to do was to go back home and pretend all was ok. I would look for the best time to poison his food…

“No!, Happiness, you should not do this?” I heard the second voice in my head saying this…

At that point, I knew the voice I was to listen to, I should listen to the later voice that just spoke, because the last time I listened to the first voice, I did something terrible…

What?

I poured Acid on Christabel…

Yes! That was my doing… I broke down in tears on the road thinking of how it had happened…

I was in my room that day, and I heard the strange voice in my heard…

“ Christabel and Nneka are after Apostle, but you know, you are the one that should step into Pastor Maggie’s shoe… Nneka will be easy to eliminate because she is your friend, but Christabel will be a hard one, Unless you do something else”

“ What?, I asked the voice

“ By pouring Acid on her face…All you need is to wear a mask over your face”

I obeyed this voice and traced Christabel to her house on Sunday evening on her way back from house fellowship. I knew she didn’t drive to the fellowship center as it was close to her house. She had mentioned it during one of her bluffing moments…

“ I don’t walk, the only time I ever walk is on Sunday evening when I go for house fellowship”

I had waited for her to show up. As she waited at the gate of her house for her security to open up, I ran towards her and poured the acid on her face.

I was not happy after I did it, but it wasn’t my fault, it was the other voice in my head…

Now, the same voice is telling me to kill Julius…

My phone kept ringing, I looked at the caller ID and I discovered it was Apostle. I sensed God had told Him something, I ended his call. Almost immediately he sent a text…

“ I don’t know what is going on with you, but don’t do anything you will live to regret…You have the strength to control the devil’s choices, don’t let the devil control you…”

How did he know what was happening to me… ? I wanted this Apostle to let me be…

I replied in capital Letters “ LEAVE ME ALONE, I HATE YOU” I guessed that would make him back off, but Instead I got a text

“ YOU ARE LOVED…”

I replied instead

“ No, Everyone hates me, including God”

“ Where are you?” He replied

“ On my way to hell, because I am about to kill someone” I replied…

I barred his number from calling or sending me a text. I called my mother instead

“ Mum, I feel I am in my hypomania mood” I said

“ Where are you?” She said in a panic

“ I am about to kill someone “

I ended the call and barred her from reaching me too

The next person I needed to call was my Doctor/ Therapist. I called him as well

“ Hello Doctor, My Head is all over the place,I am hearing voices” I said

“ Have you taken your pills?” He asked in a rush

“ Yes…but I feel like killing someone right now” I ended his call and barred him also…

I did all this routine call so that when Julius was dead, I would have people who will stand for me, that I did it under my psychosis or bipolar state…

I stopped by the market and bought some rat poison and went back home….

I know Christabel did not deserve what I did to her, but Julius deserved what I was about to do to him or what do you think…?

S.I.M.S Episode 13
“S.I.M.S”
(STEPPING INTO MAGGIE’S SHOE)
©️Opeyemi Ojerinde Akintunde

I walked back towards my new home with a beautiful smile. I didn’t have money on me to buy the rat poison, so I planned on getting home and asking Julius for some money in a very calm way.

To my utmost surprise, I met my mother at my home already. She was sitting and shaking her legs in anxiety, while Julius and his sisters were seated too, waiting for me to return.

I must have walked for 2 hours. Julius and his sisters were not aware I had been at the house earlier so I didn’t want to give myself away so easily. I gave a generous smile to everyone in the room…

“ I know that smile, it is very fake” She said as she pulled me out of the house…

“ What smile? I am happy to see you, is that bad?” I said to my mother…

“ You can pretend to everyone else, but not to me, we are going to see your doctor, before you do what you will regret…” She said pulling me to her car

Julius stepped out to join us

“ Mum, what is wrong?You came here asking of her frantically, now you can see she is fine.. I hope…”

“ She is not fine, she needs medical attention urgently…”

“ What’s wrong?” Julius asked

“ Nothing is wrong, Mum is just over reacting over a joke I made” I said trying to shut my mother up…

“ You call killing someone a Joke?”

“ She is planning to kill someone? Who?”

“ I don’t know!”

“ Happy, What is going on?, What is happening?, Did someone hurt you? Tell me who the person is and I will fight that person” Julius said…

I felt like slapping him…

“ Julius, seriously it was a joke, Mum… I can’t kill anyone…” I said laughing

Mum left much later.

I noticed Julius and his sisters were a bit edgy and they were talking in low tones.

My therapist eventually called me with another number three days later and begged to see me….

For those three days I maintained my cool, I had a plan…

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“ Happy, Do you know greed is a form a madness or insanity…? When we desire something and we go all out to get it, it pushes us to do things we ordinarily would not want to do…Tell me, What have you done?” My therapist asked me

I broke into tears, knowing the other part of me that was ruled by greed had done so much, the real me was trying to run from the Greedy me.

“ I know, I allowed Greed to push me to this point, I am not insane I am just greedy..I have a confession …..”

“ I am with you “

“I ….,.I……was the one who hired the man who Pastor Maggie dated… I wanted her out of the way, my plan was to make the man decieve her into divorcing the Apostle, but the man had other plans, he duped her and another woman instead.. The good part of me was happy that the greedy part of me didn’t have her way, since Pastor Maggie did not get out of her marriage but little did I know my mum was also up to something, which eventually led to her committing suicide….”

“ When did this greed start?”

“ As far back as I can remember … You know as an only child I always got whatever I asked for, but on getting to the secondary school, I was faced with the harsh reality of not getting everything you desire. That was when I started stealing and craving for other people’s things…

“ Hmm… “

“ This same greed made me pour Acid on Christabel”

“ But since you did all these to marry the Apostle, why did you run away from marrying him when you got the opportunity?”

“ I have two parts to myself, there is the greedy Happiness that is insane and there is the good Happiness that wants to do what is right, and the good Happiness doesn’t want to marry the Apostle so that the greedy part of me doesn’t feel that she has won..” I said crying in total honesty

“ Everyone has two parts to themselves, but what proves our sanity is when we choose to listen to the good voice, so far you have been listening the wrong side of you”

I wept uncontrollably as the reality hit me, the reality that “Any one who lets greed of any kind control them is actually MAD.”

I ended my session with the therapist with a resolution that I was going to confess to the Apostle and make my marriage with Julius work….

However, I got back home to meet an empty house with a note on the floor…

“ It may have worked out between us if you had been patient enough for me to get the money to pay your dowry. As it is, I am however grateful that I didn’t get the money to pay for your dowry because that would have had me tied to a psychiatric patient forever. You and I are not married, as you paid your dowry by yourself. I never paid …, so please feel free to go Marry the Apostle if he is still available… My regards to your mother for hinting me on your plan to kill someone, I know of a doubt, that person is me… Do have a great life, I plan on relocating to Ghana, so don’t bother looking for me…”. Julius….

I wanted to grab something, but there was nothing to grab, instead I screamed so loud I knew everyone in our noisy compound would hear me….

My greed had taken everything from me, My wish and action to be in another woman’s shoe had landed me in shame…

I thought this was the end but….

S.I.M.S Episode 12
#OpraDre

To be continued

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