MY BABY HUSBAND Episode 21 – Ayo Omolayo
I sat in the floor of my room in tears. I had been crying ever since I came back from my father-in-law’s house.
I remembered my conversation with my uncle. I quickly picked up my phone and dialed his number.
“Why did you do that?”
“Do what?” He asked.
“Why did you encourage Chris’ father to go against the wedding?”
“That wasn’t me. It was all his doing. I only called him to explain to him I wasn’t ready to give out my precious daughter in marriage. Suddenly, he started telling me that he wasn’t ready to allow his son get married either. He started telling me about his hot temper and everything.
I only had to enjoy the conversation. So I asked him what he intended to do and that was how I got to know that he invited you to the house. He told me he had something to tell you to convince you that marrying Chris would be a disaster. I had no idea about what it was. I only worked with the information he gave me and played a little omniscient game on you”.
“Chris may have anger issues, that doesn’t change the fact that I love him. I’ll always love him no matter what happens”, I said in protest.
“Wait! So you knew he’s not good enough for you?” He asked.
“Says who?”
“Then why are you forcing yourself into something you would regret? Cristina! This is a gamble. What if he gets too angry and strangles you without realizing it? Only to regret his actions when you’re already six feet in the grave. You know I will gladly bury you with a smile”.
“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!” I yelled consistently and hung up.
Even my uncle who hated me so much could advice me to choose the right man. Who would tell me God didn’t warn me enough?
“God why? Why do this to me? Why ask for the one thing I love so much and when I refused to give you, you started destroying everything in my life just to frustrate me!”
“Really?” Came that gentle voice.
“Yes! You’re making life hell for me!” I replied.
“Well, you’re not the first person to say that!”
“Who else said that?” I asked.
“Get your bible!” Came the gentle whisper.
Was I talking to someone? Who was this person talking to me like a completely different person, but still inside me?
The feeling to get the Bible was still strong on me so I decided to go and do as my mind was instructing me.
“Open to the book of Jonah chapter 2 and read verse 2.
I began to flip open the pages until I arrived at the passage.
“Jonah 2:2 And said, I cried by reason of mine affliction unto the LORD, and he heard me; out of the belly of hell cried I, and thou heardest my voice”.
“So you’re not the first person to willingly disobey God and find your life miserable. Do you know what it means to live inside a fish for 3 days?
Have you ever smelt the body odour of fish? Then imagine if you had to live inside that kind of smell. Jonah was suffocating, yet he could not die. The heat the smell and the wetness. The gross, the digestion and blood of whatever the animal ate. He cried he was in hell.
“But why do you have to frustrate me like Jonah? I was free to chose who I wanted to follow? Why impose your will on my life?”
“Cris! The day you got born again, do you remember what you told me?”
“I don’t understand? What did I tell you?” I asked.
“Can you remember the sinner’s prayer?”
“Yes I do!”
“Good! Repeat them let’s hear”.
Was I talking to myself? Where was all these coming from?
“Lord Jesus!” I began.
“I am a wretched sinner! Forgive me of all my sins. Come into my life and be my Lord and personal saviour!”
“And be your what?” Came the gentle whisper.
“My Lord and personal saviour!” I repeated.
“You asked me to be two things to you. Lord and saviour. But you only needed a saviour not a Lord. You only wanted a saviour to protect you and keep you, but not a Lord.
Christiana! What’s the meaning of Lord?”
“Boss! Someone in charge. Someone in position of authority and commands obedience”, I replied.
“Good! So you actually asked me to be in charge and that was simply what I was doing. And all these while what you have been doing was rebelling against the established authority. So the authority decided to punish you for disobeying the rules and regulations of the new government.
That’s the problem with alot of Christians today. When they asked Jesus to come into their lives, they didn’t know they were asking for a Lord. They were asking for a new Boss to take over the affairs of their lives. They signed the contract and made God the man in charge, but still follow instructions from their former boss, the devil.
They still go behind and do his bidding and claim they are loyal to their new boss. Well, when the management could not put up with their actions, they decided that they must be punished. So they seized his salary and cut off the allowances. Took the official car and house and alot of benefits. In your exact words, frustrated the life of the unfaithful servant”.
I bowed my head and sighed.
“What do you want me to do?”
“What I’ve always wanted you to do. I want Chris! Surrender or do you still want to go ahead with the marriage plans? I’ll be in attendance”.
“Lord! You know I love him so much!”
“I’m not forcing you!”
“Please change him and allow me marry him!”
“You don’t tell me what to do. Feel free to marry him if you want to, I’m not forcing you!”
I went down on my knees, tears streaking down my cheeks. Then a scripture came to my heart.
“MY SPIRIT WILL NOT STRIVE WITH MAN, FOR HE IS FLESH AND BLOOD”.
I was shocked by that revelation. I had read that scripture without understanding it. But today, my heart was completely opened to what it meant.
I understood what God was saying in that scripture. I knew God was stepping out of my way to give me the
freedom I was seeking. But I was scared. What would life look like without God? How
would I survive, with the knowledge that I intentionally disobeyed his instruction?
If Satan were to attack me tomorrow, would God listen if I cried to him for help?
“And when ye spread forth your hands, I will hide mine eyes from you. Yea, when ye make many prayers, I will not hear: your hands are full of blood.” Came another scripture.
I quivered in fear. What would it look like to have it at the back of your mind that God is not with you in the journey you embarked on. A boat without Jesus on board would sink when the storms of life come on its full force. That scripture kindled uneasiness in my heart.
“Lord why are you doing this to me?” I asked and waited for a response, but there was none.
“Lord! Please don’t leave me!” I wept.
“What do you want me to do? I’ve already told you what to do and you told you can’t do it. You’re free to do whatever you like!” Came the gentle whisper.
I quickly took her Bible and began flipping. I didn’t know what I was looking for but kept flipping the pages. I paused when I caught sight of an highlighted verse.
“Psalms 81:11 But my people would not hearken to my voice; and Israel would none of me.
12 So I gave them up unto their own hearts’ lust: and they walked in their own counsels.
13 Oh that my people had hearkened unto me, and Israel had walked in my ways!
14 I should soon have subdued their enemies, and turned my hand against their adversaries.
15 The haters of the LORD should have submitted themselves unto him: but their time should have endured for ever.
16 He should have fed them also with the finest of the wheat: and with honey out of the rock should I have satisfied thee.”
I bowed her head and wept bitterly.
Soon another scripture popped up in my heart.
“I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. To give you your expectations at the end”.
I believed my tears could fill a bucket. I laid flat on the floor before the King that can never be challenged
The scripture I had read kept repeating itself in my heart but in a different way.
“But Christiana would not listen to me, neither would she surrender to my will for her life.
So I gave her up to the lust of her heart and permitted her to do what she desperately wanted to do.
Oh! Oh that Christiana would listen to me. How I wish she could obey me?
I should soon have subdued her enemies, and turned my hand against her adversaries.
All those who hates her God should have submitted themselves and given their lives to Christ.
I should have fed you with the finest of the wheat: and with honey out of the rock
should I have satisfied you”.
I wept like a baby. My tears were endless.
“Cris! Surrender! Why fight against a God too powerful for you?”
“Lord it’s so hard!” I wailed.
“I know it’s hard! That’s why the bible says the road is narrow. Only few people follow this path. But I promise you, you would never regret it”.
At this point, I knew I had no choice. It’s now or never.
I braced myself up, leaning on my hands and knees.
It was time to make that decision that would change my life forever. It was time to give up the one thing that held me bound.
“Lord I’m so sorry. I can see the pain you feel, when men refuse to allow you take the wheel of
their lives. With my Imagination, I can see the HOLY SPIRIT grieving in that scripture I just read.
If your plans for my life is better than what I am planning for myself, then why am I so stupid? Why am I fighting for something less, when you have bigger plans for me?
You can have my life Lord. It is yours. You can have my marriage. I am ready to accept your will for my life. You only know what is best for me.”
To be continued……
Congratulations Cris!
At past the stubborn rat has been caught.
Ha! She stubborn Sha. Let’s see if she means business this time. Let’s see if she wouldn’t fall for the next drama Chris would act.
How many of you accepted Jesus as your saviour and not as your Lord?
How many of you asked him to come into your heart, but only wanted him to protect you and not take charge of your life?
Luke 6:46 And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?
It’s time to say yes Lord and surrender to his will. You don’t need to enter the belly of the whale before accepting his will.
2 Corinthians 6:17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you, 6:18 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.
INSPIRED BY THE BREAD OF LIFE
WRITTEN BY AYO OMOLAYO
YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST 🙏
