So, This is Love? Episode 5 – Judith Onyoyibo

So, This is Love? Episode 5 – Judith Onyoyibo

The next morning, my boyfriend called me on phone. I didn’t take the call because I wanted him to call for at least 4 times before taking his call.

To my disappointment, that was the only time he called. I waited and waited for his call till I got tired of waiting.

I was frustrated and anxious.

“Is this relationship really crashing? Am I dreaming?”.

Days went by and I didn’t hear anything from Mike. Not even a text message nor as little as a Whatsapp message.

Lisa tried in making feel better. She took me shopping. We went to several amusement parks. We even went clubbing twice. All these were in a bid to make me get over Mike.

I tried! I tried not to think about him. I tried to be happy honestly. I really tried my best to get him off my mind.

The more I tried to get him off my mind, the more I cried over him.

Everything reminded me of him.

Whenever I hear anything concerning football, I think of him because he’s a football fanatic. Whenever a Burna boy’s song is playing, I think of Mike. Whenever I see couples getting goofy and holding hands, I think of him. I missed him so much. This is someone I have spent over 8yrs of my life with. I have built my whole world around him.

“How do I say goodbye to the love of my life?”.

I couldn’t take it anymore. I decided to go to his house. You can call me stupid and senseless for still wanting him but before you judge me, please show me any person that haven’t done something stupid for love.

I told Lisa I was only going there to get my things. My clothes and stuffs were still there. She tried talking me out of it but my mind was already made up.

As I approached his house, my legs began to shake. I have never been that scared and anxious while going to his house.

“What if he doesn’t want to reconcile? What if he has moved on? What will I do with my life?”. The thoughts kept coming.

I finally got to his apartment. He wasn’t home. I opened the door with my spare key.

The house was very messy. I started cleaning immediately. When I was done cleaning, I prepared jollof rice.

I was still doing the dishes when Mike walked in.

“Who’s there?”. He shouted.

Without saying anything, I rushed to meet him in the sitting room.

Lo and behold, he was with the same lady from the other day. My heart broke into a thousand pieces. My breathing became abnormal.

“What are you doing here?”. He asked angrily.

“I.. I… I..”. I stuttered.

“What’s wrong with you? How did you even open the door? Oh! The spare key. Let me have it now?”. Mike shouted.

“Babe calm down. Why are you so mad at your cousin”. The Lady said to Mike.

“Cousin?”. I murmured in disbelief.

“Don’t mind your brother”. The Lady said to me smiling.

“Oh gosh I’m hungry”. She said and went inside the kitchen.

“I never knew we were related”. I said sarcastically.

“Get your stuff and leave. I don’t want to ever see you here”. Mike said in a hushed tone.

“What did I do wrong”. I asked calmly.

“I just got tired of you”. He said without flinching.

That came like a bomb of fire in my head.

“You told me what we had would last forever. You said you loved me”. I said tearily.

“I did actually. I loved you till you became extremely boring and clingy. I couldn’t deal”. Mike said.

I fell on the couch. Placing my face on my palms, I wept bitterly.

“This rice is fire. Babe your cousin is the bomb”. The Lady said excitedly with a bowl of jollof rice in her hand. Same rice I prepared with my sweat.

“She’s crying. What’s happening”. She asked concernedly when she noticed I was crying.

“She lost her mom”. Mike said without thinking twice.

I raised my head and gave him a bombastic side eye.

“You are out of your mind”. I said and left for the bedroom.

“Why is she so angry”. The Lady asked.

“That’s how she is. Please dish rice for me naaa. Why are you eating alone”. Mike said.

The Lady let out a loud laugh.

“You are lucky your cousin cooked something before we got here”. She said and left for the kitchen to dish food for Mike.

While packing my stuff, I cried my eyes out. I couldn’t stop the tears from flowing. I felt so stupid and senseless. I felt used and defîlèd. I felt betrayed. Infact, it was a rollercoaster of emotions.

It was very easy for me to gather my stuff because they were already arranged in one side of the dressing room.

“He just couldn’t wait to get rid of me”. I muttered.

“Thanks for the food Jane”. The Lady said to me as I was about leaving the house.

“She’s a nice girl. At least my replacement isn’t that bad”. I said in my mind.

I left with a broken heart.

I couldn’t even tell Lisa what happened that day at Mike’s. She would definitely ridicule and deride me.

For days, no! weeks. I mean months, I couldn’t stop crying. Mike isn’t my first boyfriend but he loved me in a way that was so different from the rest. I thought he was my final bus stop. I thought what we had would last forever.

The tears went on for months.

One morning, I woke up in a very high energy.

“I should prove to him that he lost a priceless jewel while running after stones”. I said to myself.

There were several guys who were asking me out. I did a proper selection and chose Kelvin because he was the closest to Mike.

My plan was to use kelvin as a rebound.

I would post Kelvin on all my social media platforms with catchy captions so as to pepper Mike.

I tried to portray a happy picture online. I wanted to show Mike that I have moved on from him and I was happy with my new man.

In all these, I was still unhappy and broken. Kelvin couldn’t replace Mike. He didn’t have the money nor the energy and vibes. I ended things with him when I got tired of pretending.

I decided to call Mike again and beg for a second chance.

I cried and begged. I promised to be a good girl. I even told him I didn’t mind that he was already seeing someone.

“I love my woman dearly and I can’t cheat on her. I have moved on, please respect yourself and do same. You are a beautiful lady, you will meet your Mr. Right soonest”. He said and ended the call.

Few months later, Mike and the other lady got married. It was a lavish wedding. Her name is Linda and she’s a medical doctor and also from a wealthy home.

You know the pain you feel in your heart after finding out that your replacement is better than you in all ramifications. Yes! That was how I felt. I felt so small and unworthy.

That was when I decided to move on for real.

“I am already 32yrs oh Lord. Is this the end of the road for me?”. I cried.

To be continued

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