MY BABY HUSBAND
Episode 29
© Ayo Omolayo
Susan stood up and started leaving.
“Ma where are you going?” I asked.
“He says he wants to be with you alone. He wants me to excuse you!” She said with a warm smile and left.
“Lord! What is it?” I asked the inner voice.
“GET YOUR BIBLE!”
“Hmmmmm! Cris! You’re speaking to yourself!” The thought came. But this time I understood the speaker.
Wow! So was this how the Devil had been cheating me? Each time I heard God, I concluded it was my mind talking. Thank God for this woman.
“Cris! Susan decieved you! you’re listening to the voice of a demon!” Came that arrogant and fearful voice.
“Are you telling me a demon would tell me to carry my Bible? You demon of doubt, I rebuke you in the name of Jesus!” I said authoritatively and the voice went off.
I was wowed by the act. If it was a thought, how could I address it as a demon, command it and it obeyed me? I’ve seriously received a life transforming teaching today.
I opened my Bible and was listening to any instruction from the spirit within. Non came, so I continued flipping the pages.
I didn’t hear a voice, but as soon as I arrived at a particular passage. I felt strongly in my spirit that it was the place I am to read.
So I began.
“Numbers 14:1. And all the congregation lifted up their voice, and cried; and the people wept that night.
Verse 2. And all the children of Israel murmured against Moses and against Aaron: and the whole congregation said unto them, Would God that we had died in the land of Egypt! or would God we had died in this wilderness!
Verse 3. And wherefore hath the LORD brought us unto this land, to fall by the sword, that our wives and our children should be a prey? were it not better for us to return into Egypt?
Verse 4. And they said one to another, Let us make a captain, and let us return into Egypt.
Verse 5. Then Moses and Aaron fell on their faces before all the assembly of the congregation of the children of Israel.
Verse 6. And Joshua the son of Nun, and Caleb the son of Jephunneh, which were of them that searched the land, rent their clothes:
Verse 7. And they spake unto all the company of the children of Israel, saying, The land, which we passed through to search it, is an exceeding good land.
Verse 8. If the LORD delight in us, then he will bring us into this land, and give it us; a land which floweth with milk and honey.
Verse 9. Only rebel not ye against the LORD, neither fear ye the people of the land; for they are bread for us: their defence is departed from them, and the LORD is with us: fear them not.
Verse 10. But all the congregation bade stone them with stones. And the glory of the LORD appeared in the tabernacle of the congregation before all the children of Israel”,
“STOP!” I heard from within my spirit.
I paused and asked.
“Lord! What are you saying?”
“CRIS! THE ENTIRE NATION OF ISRAEL WERE READY TO KILL MOSES AND AARON AND APPOINT A NEW LEADER. THEY WERE READY TO STONE THEM TO DEATH. OVER 6 HUNDRED THOUSAND MEN LEFT EGYPT FOR THE PROMISED LAND. ONLY TWO GOT THERE”.
“Hmmmmm! Lord what does that mean?” I asked as I brought out my jotter and began to jot down those words.
“IT MEANS WHEN IT COMES TO FULFILLING DESTINY AND PURPOSE, ONLY SO FEW IN NUMBER ACTUALLY PAY THE PRICE. CRIS! JUST LOOK AT THE AUDIENCE THAT DECIDED TO SPECTATORS? SIX HUNDRED THOUSAND MEN BESIDES WOMEN AND CHILDREN SAID THEY CANNOT FULFILL PURPOSE. ONLY TWO MEN OUT OF THE THOUSANDS OF MEN ON EARTH PAIR THE PRICE AND FULFILLED THEIR PURPOSE”.
I bowed my head and sighed. I remembered how I got scared when my mentor threatened I was going on a marathon fast for 3 days. And I knew very well that fasting to seek God’s face concerning my destiny is very important. Why was I scared of doing it? This thing would help my spiritual life, but that was what I dreaded the most. God why is it so difficult?
“THE ROAD TO HEAVEN WILL ALWAYS REMAIN A NARROW ROAD. I BELIEVE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THE WORD NARROW MEANS. IF YOU’RE NOT READY TO GO THE NARROW WAY, PLEASE ENJOY THE BROADWAY. ITS NOT A PLACE FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT READY TO TAKE GOD SERIOUS. CRIS! THAT’S WHY THE BIBLE SAYS YOU DON’T FIND A CROWD THERE. YOU ONLY FIND A FEW DETERMINED PEOPLE THERE. PEOPLE WHO ARE READY TO GO THE EXTRA MILE. PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE CALEB.
“Lord! What made Caleb so different? What made Joshua and Caleb completely different from the crowd. Is it just their determination or was there something more to it?” I asked.
“CONTINUE FROM VERSE 20!”
“Numbers 14:20. And the LORD said, I have pardoned according to thy word:
Verse 21. But as truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the LORD.
Verse 22. Because all those men which have seen my glory, and my miracles, which I did in Egypt and in the wilderness, and have tempted me now these ten times, and have not hearkened to my voice;
Verse 23. Surely they shall not see the land which I sware unto their fathers, neither shall any of them that provoked me see it:
Verse 24. But my servant Caleb, because he had another spirit with him, and hath followed me fully, him will I bring into the land whereinto he went; and his seed shall possess it”.
I stopped and sighed. Then a scripture I had once read started replaying in my mind.
“Ezekiel 36:26. A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.
Verse 27. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.
Verse 28. And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.
“CRIS! THERE WAS A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN CALEB AND UNTIL THERE IS A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN YOU! YOU WILL CONTINUE TO STRUGGLE TO DO MY WILL. BUT THERE’S A SECOND THING TO TAKE NOTE OF. BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HAVE A DIFFERENT SPIRIT IN YOU, WHICH IS MY HOLY SPIRIT. BUT DO YOU NOTICE THE SECOND INGREDIENT?”
“No sir!” I replied.
“READ VERSE 24!”
“But my servant Caleb, because he had another spirit with him, and hath followed me fully……”
“STOP!”
I quickly paused.
“HE FOLLOWED ME HOW?”
“He followed you fully!”
“CRIS! HE FOLLOWED ME HOW?”
“He followed you fully!”
“CRIS! CALEB FOLLOWED ME HOW?”
Tears prickled my eyes.
“Lord! He followed you with all his heart!”
“THAT WAS WHAT MADE THE DIFFERENCE. CRIS, MANY YEARS AGO, THERE WAS A SONG YOUR FATHERS IN THE FAITH USED TO SING.
I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOUR
I SURRENDER ALL!
TODAY, YOUR GENERATION BY THEIR ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME, HAVE CONVERTED THAT SONG TO THIS!
I SURRENDER SOME
I SURRENDER SOME
SOME TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOUR
I SURRENDER SOME!”
I couldn’t control my tears anymore.
“Lord we are sorry! Lord! We give you everything!” I said.
“STOP GIVING ME EVERYTHING! THERE’S A BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GIVING AND SURRENDER. A SOLDIER CAN GIVE YOU HIS WEAPON. BUT WHEN A SOLDIER SURRENDER HIS WEAPONS, THERE’S A BIG DIFFERENCE.
A SOLDIER CAN GIVE YOU HIS GUN, BUT HIDE A PISTOL IN HIS TROUSERS. BUT WHEN A SOLDIER SURRENDERS, HE WILLINGLY DROPS EVERY SINGLE WEAPON HE CARRYS
CRIS! A SOLDIER SURRENDERS WHEN HE KNOWS FULLY WELL THAT HE CANNOT DEFEAT THE PERSON HE’S FIGHTING AGAINST. HA! CRIS! FOR HOW LONG WILL YOU CONTINUE TO FIGHT AGAINST THE MIGHTY MAN OF WAR?”
I broke into tears and dropped to my knees.
“Lord I’m sorry!”
“SURRENDER CRIS! SURRENDER! DROP EVERY SINGLE WEAPON IN YOUR HANDS. I WANT EVERYTHING! DROP THAT DESIRE TO DO YOUR OWN WILL! DROP THAT LOVE FOR THE PLEASURES OF SIN! DROP THAT LYING TO GET WHAT YOU NEED! DROP THAT IMMORALITY! I WANT EVERYTHING!”
I laid prostrate on the floor and wept with all my strength.
“I never knew I was fighting against the God that has never lost a battle. I am so sorry Lord! I was a fool! Lord I surrender! Yes Lord! Pick anything you want in my life! Demand for anything you want from me! I’ll drop it in a jiffy! I want to be like Caleb, who followed you with all his heart. I don’t want to follow you because of the manna I eat everyday and the water I drink from the rock.
Please Lord! Give me a new heart and a new spirit. Uproot the heart of stone from within me and give me the heart of flesh. Give me the heart that cannot be hardened towards you. A heart that loves you genuinely!” I prayed and began to blast in tongues.
As I prayed, I sense goose bumps on my skin. I noticed a strong presence in the sitting room. My legs and hands began to shake on their own. They shook so violently that I found myself screaming. I rolled from one end of the to the other.
Soon, everyone in the house was with me in the sitting room.
“Yes Lord! Change her heart! This heart is too strong for you! Change her heart and make her just like you! Change her heart!” My mentor prayed.
I kept screaming as I felt a sharp pain in my chest. What was going on? The pain got so intense that I was becoming violent.
“Yes Lord! Circumcise her heart. Cut off the foreskin of her heart. Let there be a total transformation in her life today!” She prayed.
I didn’t know when I passed out.
To be continued…….
Lord I give you my heart
I give you my soul
I live for you alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I’m awake
Lord have your way in me!
Can you go ahead and tell Jesus to have his way.
Enough struggling with this God! Surrender! Drop your weapons.
Sister, he has a better plan for you! Throw away your plans and follow him completely.
No man that ever gave his all to Jesus stood and announced to the world that he regretted it.
What makes you think you are going to regret it?
I wrote this episode with tears in my eyes.
It’s time for total surrender. Drop everything!
INSPIRED BY THE BREAD OF LIFE
WRITTEN BY AYO OMOLAYO
YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST 🙏
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