PIA Episode 16 by Amah’s Heart
It took me time to settle in, i called dad to inform him, I also called Jerry and we spent time talking about everything,
the cold weather was not encouraging at first but I later got use to it, i came down with different types of African wears, I have a lot, I love creativity and dad also bought some for me when he notice my love for it back home, i got lots of people admiring my wears over here, any time i attend class or go anywhere I have people looking at me like I fell from heaven,
I never missed class, things were going smoothly for me, anything I find difficult I consult the Internet or the library,
I was able to get a smart phone and send down to June, through Jerry who took it to her school and he called me from there and gave June the phone and June was just screaming with joy, she was very happy and I was glad that I have being able to put a smile on her face, a lot more good thing is coming for her because she deserve it.
Dad said I shouldn’t bury myself in books, he wanted me to have some real fun,
and I will have lots fun but not now, there’s time for everything and I need to concentrate with my studies,
My school was mixed with different race, there was the Black and also the white,
I made few close friends, friends like Keisha, a young Lady from Jamaica and Moore, Moore was my first male White friend California, who started admiring me right from the first day I started class, he was very cute and brilliant too,
I was having more people coming around, some even wanted my kind of wear, they asked me how much it will cost and I just told them I’m too busy right now to make or design a wear for them,
It was just a lie, I can’t even design anything yet, I don’t know how is being done but I just do not want to pull them off, or discourage them because I was already thinking on how to create time to attend a fashion school so that it won’t affect my main studies, but I must first have an idea, I have to know the basics of fashion,
I decided to get a electric sewing machine and all sewing materials, so I bought a manual on how to design, I also search the internet and download lots of video, which was like a guideline for me,
So I started practicing on my free time, slow but steady on how to cut and design, it looks like I wasn’t getting anywhere at first, it looks like a child’s play but I kept on until it was gradually turning out fine, i asked Keisha where i can get material she told me where to go, so I search with my goggle map on how locate the place, Moore drove me there,
I was able to get different materials that I needed for my work,
Richie called and told me Sonia was pregnant and he has postponed the wedding until she gives birth,
He has also completed his house and was ready to move in any moment,
Within two years I got use to some people coming around, and those who admire my style of dressing,
I started having more people coming around and asking me who designed my wears, I told them I designed it myself, and some wanted me to design for them,
already I was almost perfecting my fashion design,
some paid me to make something creative for them and just like a joke I started designing simple Africa wear for the few that wanted,
I was enjoying what I do but still I do not joke with my main studies
Moore took me out today to surf, Keisha later joined us after checking up her grandmother who was in a nursing home, we went surfing,
It was a real fun, I made a video and send it to my Dad
And he called me the following day
“My precious daughter, my princess, was almost running out of patient of you sending a video where you are having fun…I thought you have forgotten to the normal general saying… All studies and no play makes Pia a dull girl, I have missed you so much my princess, even with the everyday video calls is never enough for me, you told me about becoming a designer in the future, is very okay Pia, but do not allow studies to wear you out, that White guy in the video is he the Moore you told me off..
” yes Dad, that’s Moore and the Lady in the picture is Keisha, they are my two close friends for now…
“Hmmm, I see the way he was acting around you and holding you while you surf with him…do you like him
” is just normal thing Dad, I like him he is so cool to be with..
“Please do not send the video to Jerry because he may quickly becomes sick if he sees the way Moore is holding you, he may not understand like me…he will be jealous… Please tell that White guy that he should stop over flagging himself around you, I know you likes him and may not be thinking in the same line as he is, but i think that guy is probably falling in love with you, if he hasn’t falling already, please be careful Pia, please do not forget what I told you before you traveled, if you ever decided to love another or your feeling is divided between Jerry and another man, please let me know before you make any decision, remember Jerry is holding on for you, and he will really be hurt if you decided to…
” Dad..Dad I understand, don’t conclude yet, i have not forgotten all you told me, and I don’t have a divided feeling, Moore is only trying to be a good friend to me, no feelings attached, and Jerry should learn to trust me, I still love Jerry and will always do but Dad you have to know me deeper than what you already knows, yes of a truth I like Moore but I try not to allow my feeling to run wide or out if hand, I’m in control of myself and I promise you once and will promise you I will not disappoint you Dad, stop worrying too much about me…
“I’m sorry for worrying too much, I trust you my princess and I love you more than my own life, I should allow you breath some air and not bugging you with my philosophy, you have being a good girl, you’re well discipline and principled too even before I met you, I know i worry too much when all I suppose to do is to constantly pray for you, you matters more to me than anything in the world, I just want nothing but the best for you, you are not having much fun, it was after two years of being there you finally went surfing, I know you are trying to combine school with becoming a creative designer, I understand the fact that it can be cumbersome, please just try to live everyday at a time, I don’t want to discourage you from pursuing your dream neither do I want you to over work yourself remember you are all I have Pia…put God first in all your doings and he Will always direct your path…
Dad was allowing his fear of Moore to get the best if him, I know Dad likes Jerry and he want us to end up together but I’m not thinking of dating Moore, although he has asked but I told him let’s keep being cool friends, dating wasn’t in my list because I got somebody, Jerry calls me both normal and video call, I Will always love Jerry, and I have always put God first,
God loved me first even when I couldn’t love myself, God took me from sorrow to joy, God is everything in my life and I can’t live a day without him,
I got lot to do on my list, I want to enroll into a real fashion school this coming spring, to perfect my skills and to get a certified certificate as a fashion designer, I aspire to be one of the well sorted African designers, I don’t want to totally depend on my father’s wealth, I also want to make a name for myself, and on the way to the top, I won’t relent.
Moore invited me to his parents thirty fifth wedding anniversary, he came over to pick me up and he loved my dressing, which I designed by myself, kissing my two cheeks was a normal greeting over here, and that’s how Moore greets me every time we meet,
I like Moore, he is always fun to be with and respects my decisions, this will be the second time I’m meeting his family, Moore father is a pastor in a Baptist church, Moore came from a godly home, and I also attend his father’s church with Keisha, some times Moore comes to pick me for church,
Sometimes he comes over to my side and keep me busy while I work on my sewing, he brings drinks and food and we gist and crack few jokes,
We Sometime go to the movies together, he is always cool to be with.
Will I say I’m having a divided feeling between Jerry and Moore, like My dad has feared, well I’m not sure of that, if I ever get to a cross road and It feels like I’m confuse I will call my dad like he has ask of me and let him know,
Until then let me focus on making a mark with my work.
PIA Episode 17 by Amah’s Heart
“I love you Pia, I can’t just be friends with you… is difficult to be cool friends with the woman my heart beats for, the woman I’m totally in love with, right from the first day I set my eyes on you, I have tried to be in that friend zone but is not working for me, I think of you all the time, just you Pia,I don’t just want to be friends with you i want more than that… please… my family, dad and mum loves you, I have tried to respect all your wishes and to keep my emotion in check, I try not to allow my emotion to run wide but there certain things we can’t control, I know you got someone, your country man but the person is not here with you like I am always…and is being over three years if not four now and…you haven’t seen him, all through the years I have being the one here with you not him Pia, is being me, even Keisha your friend knows the way I felt about you and she has tried to speak to you for you to reconsider but you just don’t want to, which make me wonder what could still be making you so faithful to man you have never seeing for years, and you keep ignoring the one that is always alert to every of your needs, I don’t want to be self centred but I want you…I just want you to think of me more than a friend…we have being friend for too long because you don’t want more than that….you always tell me you got somebody back in your country…I have tried not to bug you or disturb you again but I can’t help it, having you in my life is all I want Pia, I can’t hurt you Pia…I promise, I want you forever in my life, my family are not racist, my dad is a pastor and he is willing and ready to come plead on my behalf because I have told him so much about you, same with my mother, sometimes I just dream of walking down the aisle with you and my dad officiating our wedding in Baptist church, I have so much hope and believe that someday you will have a change of heart and to accept me, but it seems to be taking forever Pia, is so painful when you keep putting me off, I know you love me but you just don’t want to show it or accept it, your feeling is divided between the other guy and me, I love you more than anyone could ever do, nobody can love you like I do, if you ever agree to…to accept me and my family lets plan for the future together…please Pia, I’m ready to travel back home with you to meet your Dad, even my parents will be willing to do that…we are loving people…you will come to see that for yourself…my mum talks about you always and my siblings loves you too…you already know that right..? Please say something…this is crazy…I’m going…crazy because of you…I love you Pia…
I was quiet and couldn’t just say anything, I don’t just know what to tell Moore, he has being a great friend, and has patiently be waiting for me to someday accept him, but I can’t do this, how do my dad knows that this will happen, that I may start having a double feeling, I wonder how my dad foresee this happening when I was thinking is not possible, but I can’t hurt Jerry, no i can’t.
I was still thinking about it all when Moore gently moved closer and it was as If i wasn’t thinking anymore, and we lock lips, yes we kissed like our lives depends on it, it was as if Moore was releasing all the stored emotion he has kept in for years on me as he kissed me, I tried to pull off but he wasn’t ready to let go, and when he finally did we were both out of breath, I quickly stood up, this is really crazy, I need to clear my head..i need to be alone, if Moore is there in the same house with me something else might happen, because it was as if I can’t control my emotions again after the kiss, so I asked him to leave, he pleaded but I insisted and even shouted for him to leave when he was not ready to make any move, he quietly left and I watched him from the window as he went into his car and stayed for a very long time probably waiting for me to change my mind but I was not ready to change my mind, I have to stay strong, if I invite him in again something more than kiss may happen and I may never forgive myself if it happens, so he needs to leave so that I can think straight, as I watch him from the window, he was just sitting in his car for over thirty minutes out side my house, he didn’t make any attempt to drive, he just sat there, later my phone was ringing and when I checked it was him, I didn’t pick at first but he continued to call, I later picked the phone,
“Pia, I’m sorry…I just couldn’t hold myself anymore, I have held it in for too long…I’m still outside, I haven’t left yet, please come outside, we may go to my place or to any where of your choice, I just can’t leave like this, or please let me in, I just want to be close to you…I can’t control the way I feel about you anymore, I’m sorry I probably went against your rules, you want me as much as I do, why are you holding back, we are meant to be together…please let me in or you come outside please Pia…because I’m not leaving here until you answer me…why are you afraid…what exactly are you afraid of…I’m tired of pretending to be just a friend…I want you Pia..and I know you want me too…
“Moore go home, let’s just pretend that the kiss never happened, I can’t be with you, I can’t let you in or come out, I’m also sorry …for everything… but you really need to leave, …I’m sorry but I need time to think straight…I don’t want to get your hopes up but we can’t be together…we can’t be together Moore..
I ended the call and didn’t even answer him when he came out from the car and came knocking at my door again, Moore waited over an hour before driving off, jerry called in the night and the following day but I couldn’t pick, I needed to speak to my dad and when my dad finally called me the second day, very early in the morning he was sounding excited
“Princess Pia, how are you doing this morning, I wanted to be the first to wake you up, and to say good morning or where you awake already, how’s the weather this morning…any plan for today yet..
“I don’t really have much plan today, just want to visit the library, you know I’m rounding up with my program before this month ends, will soon be entering another section, but that will be by choice, if I still want to continue, so I’m just doing more research than classes now and also designing more, because I have more free time now unlike before…but I don’t feel too well today…
“what is wrong dear, is it still the migraine you complained of the last time or flu, I told you Pia, you really need to take rest from over working yourself, maybe you should pulse from the fashion thing for now until you are totally fine, and Jerry also came, he looks sad, he said you have not being picking his call, he thought he did something wrong that is making you to ignore his calls, he is worried, is it because you are not feeling too well and you don’t want him to start worrying over your health, I just want to know what he did wrong, you know he loves you and you not picking his call is eating him up…what’s the problem dear…tell me did he do or say what you don’t like and hope is not that white guy that is consuming your time…just tell me what’s going on…
“Jerry didn’t do anything wrong but I did, I don’t know…what’s wrong with me… is Moore dad, we kissed… three days ago, and more could have happened if not that I asked him to leave, I didn’t plan for it to happen, but Moore was always with me, we became to attached to each other and I started having a crumbled feeling which I didn’t want to admit, but I tried to keep it normal but the more I see him everyday the more my closeness grow with him…i have asked him to stop seeing me for the main time so that I can have time to think straight…
“hmmm…I already know it will come to that..i told you Pia, that white guy was in love with you…just from watching him from the video you usually send to me, he was deeply in love and you can’t just be friends with some one like that, is just a matter of time and you will also start having feelings too for him, there are things we can’t control no matter how we try to, you see Moore almost everyday and you do lots of activities with him, is only normal for such to happen, Jerry is far away back here, and you haven’t seeing him for over three years going to four years, sometime out of sight is also out of mind, but I know you have both tried to be faithful to each other and that’s genuine love, I’m glad you stopped Moore from trespassing, don’t hit yourself too hard, you tried by not allowing your emotions to get out of hand, you can’t be just cool friend with somebody who is deeply in love with you… it doesn’t work that way, is just a matter of time and you will also fall into same line, do you want to come home, Jerry misses you and I know you miss him too, maybe if you see Jerry again you will stop being confuse or worried, and also Richie is getting married to Sonia, I guess he already told you that, there wedding is next month end, I wish you will be here before then, I also got another surprise for you but I don’t want to talk about it over the phone, I don’t know how you will feel about that but I can only speak about it when I see you face to face, please try to create time to come home, Jerry really miss you, and is written all over him, and you.. not picking his call again is bad Pia, do you want to kill him, I mean that young man is so heart broken because you have not being taking his call, he loves you and will be very hurt if you start avoiding him just because you kissed another man, I also miss you and want to see my daughter again, I want to hold you again in my arms, is being years dear, we all miss you over here, please round up with your programme and let’s know if you can pay us all a visit, don’t worry it will be a surprise for the others, I won’t let anybody know that you are coming over not even Jerry…is that okay…you miss Jerry right…?
“yes dad…is okay..i will like that and yes I miss Jerry…I will quickly round up with what I have at hand and fly down…I have also missed home…just don’t know how to face Jerry after getting involve with Moore, and we actually kissed and I can’t deny the fact that it feels good…I wanted more but have to hold myself from doing that…
“that’s good, I’m glad you held yourself, don’t worry Jerry’s kiss taste even better now than the last time, far more better than that white guy who knows nothing much about you, Jerry knows you from grass to grace, he can tell your story better than any man, he has being patient and has not seeing anybody to equal you, I speak so much about him because I spend more time with him this past years you have being away, he has proving to be a best friend you could ever have and my future son in-law, and I know you love him too the only problem now is the distance relationship, and you are a pretty young girl and is okay to be tempted, let’s just call Moore your man crush and nothing more, you have loved Jerry right from your teenage days and even now, and you will see him soon and Moore will be forgotten, I will be looking forward to that day you will be coming home, and will be at the airport to pick you up, but don’t ignore Jerry’s call again, I love you my daughter…remember you matter more to me than everything in this world put together, be happy and live today like it all matters…
So it was a long talk with dad, I laughed at some of his jokes which made me feel better, after the phone call I felt relieved, and just in few weeks I will be home to dad, Jerry and everyone, I don’t know what surprise dad said he has for me,
i still wonder what the surprise could be that he doesn’t want to speak over the phone but will say only if he sees me physical,
well let me go and get ready to journey down for whatever could be waiting for me, i’m keeping my fingers cross.
PIA Episode 18 by Amah’s Heart
My dad was already waiting at the air port for me, he was laughing so loud on seeing me, I was so happy to see him too, we hugged and cried for some minutes before letting go of each other, I was finally going home after four years of being away, I had lots of luggage, I got gifts For almost everybody, for my dad, Jerry, Richie, Sonia and also their son, who was already a year old, I got things for June, for Ben, Mr Puff and his colleagues and also Cecelia, I even got extra for people who may probably visit from dad’s company or anywhere, everyone got their own package,
Keisha followed me to the shopping mall where I got all the gifts, we took a cab because I have being trying to avoid Moore after our last kiss, I couldn’t even tell him I was travelling because I wouldn’t be able to look him in the eye without having a mixed feeling,
He was a great friend, I’m sad we have to part this, although I’m still coming back, I plan to own a fashion house in the future, so I have lots of things that will bring me back,
after all my luggage were all loaded into the car, we drove home happily, I did must if the talking as he drove, dad was unusual quiet but he was probably too excited that I’m home because I was.
We got home and I found out the house has being renovated, repainted to one of my best colours, even the inside was wearing a new look, could this be the surprise Dad said he has for me because even my room and sitting room was wearing a new look, the house staffs were all surprise and happy to see me, likewise me, I was also happy to see them again after four years,
Cecelia has changed, looking so beautiful, I never knew she has such an hidden beauty, she was glowing, and I also noticed that she was avoiding eye contact with me, even though she seem so happy to see me,
When she came to serve me and my Dad food at the dining, my dad looked at her in an unusual way, Cecelia didn’t look up, even as she dish food into my dad’s plate, I watch as my dad deliberately brushed his hand on her and Cecelia started shaking and mistakenly dropped the spoon that was in her hand on the floor, my dad wanted to help her pick it up but she quickly picked it and ran off to the kitchen,
my dad looked at me but I looked away, I pretend as if I was watching the television,
could it be what I’m thinking, was that really love i see in my dads eyes when he looked at Cecelia, is my Dad in love with Cecelia, could that even be possible, anything is possible, is that also the surprise my Dad said I needed to come home to see,
I pretend as if I didn’t notice anything as I eat in silent, after which I retire to my room, I looked forward to seeing Jerry tomorrow, I slept off after few minute of laying down, when I woke up the following morning, I was greeted by the sun ray penetrating through the window,
I was so happy to be home,
after refreshing, and getting dressed I decided to go down stairs, I was hearing voices so I took a peep first,
Jerry was there, Richie with Sonia, she was carrying my suppose little cousin, my Dad was there too with few others I didn’t recognized, I guess they are dad’s friends, I went back to check my face in the mirror again, I was wearing one of the cloths I sewed and designed in abroad, I know I was okay, I don’t like heavy makeup, just my normal light makeup, after I checked for the third time and I felt good with myself I decided to go down, as i was about going out if my room I started hearing a foot sound coming towards my room, my heart started beating as I heard a knock, I opened and it was my dad, he smiled as I held my heart
“Hope you slept well my princess, you look good in those outfit, you are really beautiful dear, Jerry is here…down stairs with Richie and Sonia And also your little cousin, my two friends too are here, but non of them knows that you are around, I just ask them to join me for breakfast, I even told Ce..Celia..and others not to let any body know you are around, Jerry asked me if I have spoken to you yesterday or today because he has not being able to reach you I told him that I spoke with you last night, he doesn’t even know that my princess is sleeping upstairs, are you ready now to come down let’s watch the surprise look that Will be written on their faces if they see you…
We both laughed as my dad took my hands into his and we walked down,
Richie was the first to see me and quickly stood and sat back again, he was trying to be sure that I was actually the one, followed by Jerry who widened his eyes and opened his mouth, he screamed in shock, as he stood up, ran to the door and returned back, he was acting crazy, Sonia screamed and rushed to me as we hugged while, my Dad was just laughing at the different reaction from people on seeing me, I went to Richie who was already standing and moving towards me, he hugged me while laughing so hard and telling his elder brother that he really got him with the surprise, Jerry still stood at a distance while staring at me as if he was seeing a ghost, he started moving towards me, and when he got close he looked at me all over just to be sure I’m the one before drawing me into his arm, he screamed and was laughing at same time while holding me, he didn’t quickly let go of me,
It was a sweet moment and a sweet memory to keep, everyone was talking almost at same time, my Dad laughed as he told them how he wanted to surprise them all and everybody laughed even more, my dad really got them with the surprise package,
There was the distributing of gifts to everybody, they were all excited,
Jerry couldn’t stop staring at me and when we finally had a moment alone outside, he hugged me all over again, as we talked and laughed, Jerry hasn’t changed much, he only trimmed down his full bears which makes him look younger and more handsome than usual, I have truly missed my best friend,
After the whole day long gist and homecoming party, I went to bed filled with smile, after like thirty minutes somebody knocked and it was my dad, he smiled as usual before coming to sit down,
“I was already getting scared of loosing my daughter to that White guy, and end up hurting Jerry… Now I’m glad you are home…
” Dad… You seem to have a problem with Moore, is it because he is white or what…you are acting like a racist dad but I know you are not, Moore is actually a very nice guy…he was my good friend… His father is a pa…
“Pastor… I already knows that, you told me severally, I don’t have any issue with Moore but I didn’t just want you to hurt Jerry, he has being there even before me, what would have happened if he wasn’t there back then when you needed help, he is one of the reason I have you back in my life, I just don’t want to see him hurt, because I know how hurt he will be, I know that feeling because I have being there, I once had a Lady I loved so much, I gave her everything and even more, then I sent her abroad for her master programs which she never returned back to me because she met a White guy, I was hurt, shattered, it was a trying period, watching the person you love so much choose another over you… It hurts Pia, that’s what I was avoiding for you and Jerry, I never hate Moore I just don’t want you to loose focused…I told you Jerry’s kiss taste far better than that of Moore, hope you have confirmed it now..hahahaha
I laughed so hard while shaking my head, my Dad also laughed, I remember Ben telling me about the Ladies that jilted my Dad which made him hardened to everyone, and he later loosened up and became himself again, Moore must have brought back sad memory for dad after he was heart broken, a white guy taking his Woman or his Woman forgetting the Man that was always there for her and chose the white guy over him.
my Dad continued talking
“I’m so happy to have you back home pia, I missed you more than I can explain, you know I love you so much right…. nobody and nothing can ever change that fact, I didn’t want to tell you this on phone and i wanted to see you face to face and get your opinion on my recent decision, because it really counts and if you say you don’t want it then I will stop because that’s how much I love you, I want to marry Cecelia…i love her Pia, I want to get a good decent Woman, she mustn’t be well to do, educated or connected, all that matters to be me is the heart, beauty is in vain but a woman that fears God is the key for me, Cecelia got it all, I have studied her this past years and come to know she is a woman to keep, i have already given up on ever getting married then I saw that Cecelia maybe the Woman for me, I don’t really need to go far to look for a woman, there was a good cook and a house keeper named Cecelia that my daughter went out of her way to bring home and she got a heart of gold too, I seek for your permission to marry her please…
“Dad..wow..you know you already have my blessings…I’m happy you found love again…but Can I speak to Cecelia and know if she feels the same or not…
We talked some more before he left,
the following morning I met Cecelia making breakfast, she quickly greeted me before I can even open my mouth, she bent her Head without looking up at me as she go around with her chores
” Cecelia… I spoke with my Dad last night and..
“Pia…I swear to you, I didn’t say yes at first when he asked me to… To ma…rry him, I didn’t want you to feel bad, because I owe you my life for saving me, giving me a job and a comfortable roof over my head… Marrying your Dad without your approval was asking for too much, you showed me undeserved love pia, I was a nobody and you gave me reason to smile, I told him to ask you first whatever you decided is okay by me…I’m just scared…
” of what…what exactly are you scared of, is my dad too old for you… Do you truly love him..
“I’m thirty six years pia, your dad’s age is only normal for me.. And yes…
.I truly love him…not for his money or any selfish interest… Your father is a good Man… And I really love him pia, and our being together is only determined by you, I won’t feel bad if you say no to us being together, I have saved up enough money, I can get a place of my own and start a Small business, you have already done so much for me I can’t ask for more…
” you both already got my blessing, go ahead and marry my Dad, it will be my Joy to see both of you happy, you two deserved to be happy…
Well, they were very happy, i was also happy for them, Cecelia hugged me, she was very grateful, same with dad, so we got wedding to plan. Dad is getting married to Cecelia, Cecelia is going to be my step mum, isn’t that interesting.
My Dad said we Will be going to visit somebody tomorrow in a far distance, just both of us, I asked him who the person is and he said it was the main surprise he told me off,
The person is also waiting to meet me,
Hope is not Aunty Koh because that’s what my mind is telling me,
whoever it is I will know by tomorrow.
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